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20 July, 2005 | 7:06 p.m.
Maybe I'll Just Implode?
I got accepted at the college of my choice! I will now try to become an interpreter, we'll see how that works out. Although I'm thrilled to be accepted, there's a fly in the ointment (I found that expression in a Norwegian book called RealEngelsk, it's full of expressions I've never heard before... Does anyone use the "fly in the ointment" thing? Sounds kind of silly to my Norwegian ears:)), and that is the distance there'll be between H and me. In the beginning I figured I'd just end it when we left for school, but now... I'm too much in love. I wouldn't dream of breaking up with him now, so if it happens, it'll be because he ends it. And I hope he won't, and it doesn't seem like it. But I'm worried because we've only been together for 2 months and that's not exactly a strong foundation to build a long-distance relationship on. We've even promised not to cheat on eachother... I know I could never do that to him, but he's easy to talk into things (like buying me coffee! That actually doesn't take more than a little eye contact...) and I just don't know. I'll be the most paranoid girlfriend ever (if I am not already), and probably worry all the time that he's met someone else, and that's really no way to lead a life, constantly worrying. But I don't want to give up on him, I really don't, because he's just the sweetest guy I've ever met and I can, for the first time in my life with any guy, picture us being together for... a long time. Really long. The irony is, there's a good chance it'll be over in a few months when we realize it's too difficult and we don't see eachother enough.
It's typical, isn't it? One area of your life is going great, and then it all falls apart because another area of your life starts to work out. I guess I can't have it all, that's what it is. Concert And Camera Concern (Or Rather: "Impatience") - 27 March, 2006 My Windowsill - 20 March, 2006 Crashing Crush - 20 March, 2006 Books! - 19 March, 2006 Sucked In By Lipton - 16 March, 2006 |