01 June, 2006 | 6:21 p.m.
Not At All Prepared

Six days left now... And then I'm out of here! I'm really excited about going back home to Oslo. This has been a nice year, but I could never live in Kristiansand full time.

I've been having some weird thoughts lately. They have to do with babies.

I know, it's spooky! If you'd asked me a year ago whether I wanted to have a baby or not, I would've said "hell no!" But these past few months I've really been thinking about it, what it would be like being pregnant, being a mom, taking care of someone... And I'm not a baby person! At least I didn't use to be.

Maybe this has something to do with my godmother status. In a weird sense, to be someone's godparent makes you feel responsible for the baby, protective and it sure makes me feel damn maternal!

I don't want to get pregnant now, because I want an education and more life experience before I commit to something so monumental. But it's just so weird walking around and thinking about it now, feeling certain that yes, I do actually want to have a baby someday!

It probably also has to do with H, and the fact that we have a great relationship and I could easily see myself having his child and imagine him as a father. He'd be great. Probably better than me, I'd just be completely freaked out and worried all the time!

This is a scary entry! But it's okay, because in my mind, having children is a perfectly scary idea. Scary, but amazing.

Not now, but hopefully some day.


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